25 Reasons Why I'm Angsty

1. I am very silly and self-absorbed.
2. I am confused about who I am and why.
3. I have lost the direction that I felt so strongly for all of my cognizant life.
4. I have rare good connections with my family members, but it seems that nearly every time I do I find a way to mess it up near the end.
5. I have failed more social obligations in the past few months than in the previous four years.
6. I want to move back home.
7. I don't know anyone from back home anymore.
8. I want to become orthodox.
9. I want to become an evangelical missionary.
10. I want to fall in love and get married and have children.
11. I have ended (certain friends would say "sabotaged") every relationship I have been in for ultimately selfish and questionable reasons.
12. I know that getting into a relationship right now would be like trying to bake a cake in the middle of a tornado.
13. My parents want me to get married and have children.
14. My littlest brother wants me to get married and have children. My deadline is his 14th birthday, two years.
15. Every time I go to church, I feel like I truly have "found the true faith."
16. That make me an arrogant jerk.
17. My orthodox friends are partisan to orthodoxy.
18. My protestant friends are partisan to protestantism.
19. I think both are good. Which is to say, neither is evil.
20. I am an external processor.
21. I don't want to talk about it.
22. I wish I was a better person.
23. I wish I wasn't so cranky and whiny all the time.
24. I want to quit smoking.
25. No I don't.